Today was frankly one of the worst days i’ve ever had. My mother, YES MY OWN MOTHER told me that my life will result to nothing. Yes nothing. My existence is nothing, her life would be so much better if I was not around. Already broken by the fact that all my friends hate me, and one of my ex’s is currently in the hospital I did not need my own mother to tell me i should have never been born. But that’s not what made me feel so bad, I felt bad because I actually believed her. Ugh i’m done for a while. But I must thank those on tumblr for their post and random rants, because without them I’m pretty sure I wouldn’t be here anymore. So again thank you Tumblers.
Im gonna do both days cause i have to much crap to deal with tomorrow D:
Day 14 - Your favorite LGBT song or artist
I don’t have one sadly cause music does not judge.
Day 15 - Your favorite LGBT quote
"What is ‘normal’ other than our perceived notion of it. And what is acting ‘normal’ other than our pretense to do so as to be considered ‘normal’. Now, normally I wouldn’t be ‘normal’. I mean, who would?" ~Amy Birdsong Fuck normality ;)
Day 12 - Your favorite LGTB movie (or one you’d like to see)
I’ve seen so many LGTB movies xD its hard to say which is my favorite. But if i have to pick i would have to say, East side story. East side story is about
The story of Diego (René Alvarado), a young, closetedLatino, who helps his grandmother (Irene DeBarri) run the family restaurant while carrying on a relationship with equally closeted Pablo (David Beron).
Diego has long felt trapped by the conservative culture of East LA and plans to move away and open an upscale restaurant, hopefully with his lover. But Pablo views their relationship very differently - a point driven home when he begins dating Diego’s Aunt Bianca. At the same time, Wesley and his boyfriend move in, gentrifying the neighborhood. The attraction between Wesley and Diego is immediate and electric, forcing both men to reexamine their state of affairs in this entertaining comedic drama.
So how is everyone out in TumblrLand??? I hope your doing great cause I’m not xD I’m having issue with my feelings. There’s this freshman in my school, Russian, Wrestler, Sooo fine, Super duper nice, and just awesome all the way around the board. I’ve been having dreams about him for the past 3 nights straight. I thought I was compeltely over him because he’s straight so there’s no point going for him but apparently my heart is still yerning for him and it sucks D: DAMN YOU STRAIGHT HOT RUSSIAN MALES! I was thinking about turning him… but like my friend Lindsay said ” Stop chasing things that will never be.” Ugh Damn hormones xD. Anyway, I forgot the other reason why I wanted to make a post… OH YEAH I GOT SIMS 3! and after 2 weeks ( ingame) Got with the maid xD. He’s a hunky maid :P. lol I have no life xD
Well until my next random post about randomness, This is Timejinx signing off :D
Ugh marriage D: Frankly I dont want to get married. But at the same time spending the rest of my life with someone who I love and I know loves me doesn’t sound so bad. Idk Marriage to me means spending a period of your life with someone where you don’t hook up with other people, You don’t hit the clubs every night, and stuff like that. Actually marriage can mean a lot of things. But thats just what it means to me i guess.
Day 11 - Your favorite LGBT book (or one you’d like to read)
I actully never read a LGBT book sooooo If you know of any let me know and I’ll read it :3
Day 9 - What do you think about LGBT Pride? Is it helpful or hurtful? Encouraged or unnecessary?
LGBT Pride…. thats a big thing. To me personally I show my pride by accepting who i am and defending what i love. It shows that people that were not panzies like they think. I encourage everyone to show their pride gay , bi or straight. It will help in the long run
So I’m on my way home on the school bus and I must say I hate it. I just dislike the bus ride home with the niggas. These black freshmen give the black students in my school a bad name. Its a shame how they act to. Like they need to chillax, Your fucking 15 your not getting pussy like how you claim. Ugh I can’t wait till I get my car back. I’ll post again when I get home. It’s Day 9 of the 30 day challenge.
Day 8 - What do you think the closet or being closeted means to you?
THE CLOSET!!! It’s a mental jail cell we lock ourselves in due to the fact we can not cope with who we are. Personally I hate the closet. First off why is it a closet? Closet make me think of a corpse ( to many law shows). But then again its better then being trapped in different places. Like a trunk of a car… or a box. Lol I think I got off topic xD. Anyway The closet to me is a safe haven for people who aren’t ready to truly be who they are. If your in the closet, enjoi it. If your out and stuffed the closet with clothes be happy. No matter what you are just smile and enjoi life.
Today while enjoing a snow day, I watched a movie called Dare. It was a good movie but it made me think about the male leader character. In every high school there’s that one guy that every girl wants to fuck and every guy wants to be. He’s usually a jock or rich or just really hot. Yes that is a sterotype. Crap i lost my thought…. Ugh anyway, LONG STORY SHORT! I just don’t get why people take these movies to heart. I’m sorry if i’m like crushing your fairy tale dream but it just might not happen. HE’S NOT THAT INTO YOU… Fucking fairy tales don’t always happen. Actually they usually don’t happen. Just live with that you got and be fucking happy. This has been a rabble by a tired teen.
Day 7 - How your parents took it or how you think they might take it
Well the way my mom found out, we were arguing and She said something how i’m acting is the reason why I can’t keep a girlfriend and I just yelled ” The reason why I can’t keep one is because I’m not attracted to those ugly sluts.” She stopped asked me what I meant, I said forget and walked off. Two days later she sat me down and started crying. She told me it’s ok who i date she doesnt care. She cried , I just sat there. It was a sad day. Now that I think about it I kinda wish i did cry that day.
I know its been forever since I wrote an actual post. My recent post dealt with my two challenges I’ve been taking. Anyway I felt as thought I needed to share some words with my followers. If there is any xD. I hope you guys and gals have been enjoing life. I have :) For those in the Pa region get ready for snow :D I gotta go shopping now so , Lates ;)
This might be cheesy but, A while ago I missed a week of school because I was sick. So one day my mom decided it would be good for me to get some fresh air. She took me with her to run some errands. One of them was to our town’s police station. When I found out we were going there I texted a friend and told him to meet me at the bathrooms. We got there and we kinda made out for like 2 mins. The next day I felt so much better. <3
Day 5 - Thoughts regarding inner turmoil about your sexuality; Did you have any? Did it escalate to self-injury or suicidal thoughts
I’ve had many issues with my sexuality. There have been many times where I tried to turn myself straight. When I was 15 I went to a chruch and asked a preist to help be get rid of the supposed curse. I remember going to the chruch for two weeks , Being tapped with a cross , hit with holy water and more. It was weird. But in the end I realized that being who I am isn’t a problem cause I got the with Preist son in the end ;)
Day 1 - Your sexual orientation or gender identity. Be creative in your definition.
Well this has been the question of the last 2 years. Frankly, I truly don’t now exactly where I stand. I mean , Yeah I like girls but I also like guys so does that make me bi? But I dated more girls than I dated guys, Does that make me straight? I mean at this point in time I don’t need to exactly know , I am only 17.
For the moment I guess you can call me a Male who enjoi’s the best of both worlds.
It’s hump day apparently? Anyway if you’ve noticed I’ve been taking this chanllege which spans over seven days. I like it. It gives me something to do every day while I sit at the library doing absolutly nothing xD. ALSO! Sometime this week im gonna upload some pics and music. Idk why I’m just bored really :). Until next time I guess, this is Jinx signing off.
Day 1 - Seven things that cross your mind a lot. Day 2 - Six things you love. Day 3 - Five songs you like. Day 4 - Four things you wish you could say, but might never. Day 5 - Three things you miss. Day 6 - Two things you want. Day 7 - One story of a memory you have.